I thought it might be good to post copy of an email I sent Fred Davis from Awakening Clarity yesterday, the morning after a two and a half hour Direct Pointing session with him – our only session.
Good morning Fred,
Wow! OK , where to start. I wanted to check in with you and firstly say a massive ‘THANK YOU’. Your energy last night was incredible – you just didn’t give up! The clarity began to deepen pretty early on, but halfway through, the mind started saying ‘it’s not going to happen’, but beingness just kept surrendering to now, and dropping the ‘I know’ to give in to the ‘knowingness’, and finally without Paul noticing really, this subtle shift, no, not a shift, no movement – maybe a ‘reveal’ happened, and this awakening was seen to be what has always been, can never not be, that there is nothing but this awakening-ness.
Paul was silent for the hour or so after our call, and the LSD-like beingness, maybe clarity, dropped away a little after a while, but instead of where previously the mind thought ‘aha, you’ve lost it’, it was known that it’s impossible to lose what you are, that the very fact that a recognition of ‘having it’ or ‘losing it’ can be happening at all is because of this beingness, this knowingness of the experience of now. And so now, simply as the attention is brought back to the beingness, so returns the Presence and Clarity, and a living from the silence and stillness from which experience arises.
And Paul wonders what all the fuss was about. Why was he searching for what he already was, and how did he not see it before?
And then I see that I did see it before, but simply didn’t recognise it – in inquiry, watching Paul do the washing up, that was beingness, simply being, and then I see that even when Paul doesn’t realise it, and isn’t ‘practising’, he is still beingness, watching, listening, being – but not a *thing* watching, listening, being, but the watching, listening, being, *itself*. I’m not that which watches, I am the watching. I’m not that which hears, I am the hearing. I am the aliveness in everything, I am not only the listening, but the thing being listened to. All of this is within this beingness which I can not ever not be.
Beautiful, simple, sooooo obvious. And yet so clearly just the tiniest of non-shifts – this isn’t a change – awakening isn’t a change at all. DOH! And it becomes clear what the embodiment is – this ‘waking down‘ – that the habits of believing that Paul is in charge continue to pop up and this is seen, and seen through, repeatedly. And this is continuous, a never-ending process of seeing-through (putting aside the fact that time is an imaginary construct, as there is only now) – Awakening begins the process – although that isn’t quite right either. Awakening is the process and the processor. hahaha!
It is seen that this needs to sink in and digest, and more understanding needs to happen. I’m very aware that what I’ve written has been written and read a thousand times before, but it comes from not a place of remembering now, but from a place of being. Of aliveness. Of knowingness. There’s a meaning in these words that was never seen or understood before. Wow.
Most importantly, you did a fantastic job, what you do is as brilliant as Jeannie and I had suspected, and I will forever be grateful for last night, and what you continue to do. I’ll start reading your book tonight
Thanks Fred, you’re the man.
Much love,
Paul xx
Wow indeed! I have only just stumbled upon Fred Davis and yours is quite an endorsement of his effectiveness in “removing the blinkers” Congratulations! Your eloquent words speak to the results of your time with Fred, but are you able to comment at all on the process that led to that result?
Hi Mike,
I’m glad you liked the post – I was a little hesitant in simply publishing the email, but felt that it might show other’s who are interested in Fred’s work that it does yeild results. In fact, I understand from Fred that the vast majority of his one-on-one sessions end in an awakening.
I was certainly a ‘tough cookie’ to crack, as I’ve been in non-dual practice for nearly twenty years, so the mind had had a good long time to turn it all into concepts and objects, which Fred gradually took apart.
As for the process itself, I would point you to Fred’s book – the Book of Undoing – as it could easily be a transcript of the two and a half hour session that we had; he had to use everything he’d got to throw at me!!!
The Book of Undoing
If you check out the link above, the links to purchase the book are at the bottom of the article. I recommend a session with Fred wholeheartedly – what he’s doing is brilliant, in my humble opinion.
Of course, Awakening is simply step one, but seeing ‘me’ for what it truly is – an imaginary concept – is an important step – following it up with living and embodying the realisation, and taking your stand as Awareness is where it all happens afterwards. Quite the challenge!
Gah, it all turns into never-quite-right words the moment I try to write about it, hence the lack of words in this blog!
If you fancy spending time with Fred yourself, you can book a session with him here:
Fred Davis on Meeting Truth
If you’d like to talk more about it, I’d be happy to – let me know and I’ll give you my email address.
Much love,
Paul
Hi Paul
Thanks for the reply. I purchased The Book of Undoing a couple of days ago and am working my way through it. I certainly would like to talk more about it with you by email.
Mike